A Used Hoodie

I deserved this hoodie. I managed to set him up with a girl I have never even met. That requires skill, and deserving of a gift. 

Once upon a time, I was the Nokia for questionable men in Jakarta. I was connecting people. It's not something I am proud of, but it does remind me of how not boring my life is at times. How many stories I have under my sleeve. How many anecdotes. 

He was one of the people. The sad thing is, I liked him. I'm still unsure if he ever likes me, not just in a romantic way, but in a "person I know" way. There are things that happened between us that I still, to this day, keep just to myself. There are things that happened between us that still make me question who I am as a person. Almost most of them were not kosher. 

Our "relationship" ended when he blocked me. I don't even remember why he did. Maybe I was just being increasingly annoying. I do that sometimes, especially when I feel I'm being treated unfairly. 

We reconnected a while ago, he seems to do well. And again, I am astonished by my ability to forgive. to let things go. Because I am genuinely happy to see him happy. Even after everything.